growing up
at first i couldn’t imagine growing up because i related it with everything that had to do with responsibility and nothing that had to do with fun. and then i realized somewhere along this crazy journey that growing up isn’t so terrible after all. you get all the freedom to choose what you want to do with your life and gain all the benefits from these decisions (granted sometimes the decisions result in consequences instead of benefits).

so in many ways growing up is like a crazy game of decisions. it’s sort of overwhelming to think that there are so many crossroads, as movies like to refer to them.

and since this has been the topic on many of my friends’ heads recently, i’m guessing that i’m not the only one that’s nervous about the future. there’s always that thought that lingers in the back of my head wishing that i would never have to grow up. the little peter pan speaking to me.

but the more that i think about it i couldn’t imagine living the rest of my life without making decisions for myself and taking responsibility into my own hands. up until now, i’ve been somewhat guided along this pathway of life. i studied hard, got into college.. and will hopefully graduate this spring. along the way, i made some amazing friends and had tons of fun with little reserve. and now that i’m about to enter the “adult world” i’m a little terrified that i won’t know where to go or what to do.

but i at least have the reassurance that it’s me making the decisions.