a grey world
where do i draw the line between sacrificing too much and being a thoughtful, caring person? i hate to be selfish, but i don’t want to be stuck being the only person putting something into this.

i’ve never been so terrified of being vulnerable. i can’t seem to let go of this pleasant comfort zone i’ve created for myself over these past years. i’m straddling between two worlds, and i can’t have both.

i’m sick of making excuses in my head. of reasoning things out for you. for me. nothing is exactly the way it seems. but if i think hard enough, i can create a reason for anything.

in this grey world, i need some guidance. i need someone to understand me. and i guess i thought it was you who had the answers. is it really so much to ask?