this sucks
sometimes i feel so unimportant here. whenever i get stuck, i almost don’t want to bother my managers because they seem so busy with issues that are much more important than my project. most of the time i can’t find them, so i sit here, blindly navigating my way through.

my greatest fear is that after my 12 week internship at beckman, i will have accomplished nothing for the company. i want to make some sort of impact with my time here.. even if it is really small.

i just met with someone who told me that the time spent working on my project could be better spent elsewhere in the company.. simply put, that my project was of little use to the company. i told him that i didn’t want to feel like i wasted my time here at the end of my internship, and he laughed.

even after telling my manager about the situation, he still seems pretty set on me getting this done. but i don’t know where to go from here.

how much of the process should i change if it is going to be changed again in a couple months?

seriously. i don’t want to do busywork. i don’t care if i’m getting paid, i want to be of some purposeful use to this company.