spring break is finally here!

it’s a weird feeling to have finally reached what i’ve been waiting for since the second i walked back into school in january. all the anticipation. all the built up desire to run away from school, to by-accidentally sleep through the entire day, or to take advantage of the weekend so much that i lose myself.

it’s such a weird feeling that i almost don’t know what to do with myself. i suddenly realized that spring break isn’t all what i thought it was going to be. it suddenly hit me that ap tests aren’t so far away anymore. and SAT II’s are even closer.

i think i ruined it for myself. i took the idea or spring break. set it up so high on a pedstal and idolized it for 4 months. and then, now that it is finally here, and i can’t relax.

i want to do EVERYTHING. and i realized that i can’t. i shouldn’t be so selfish.

i’ve made the decision to enjoy all the time i get this spring break.

and so far i have. i had most possibly the greatest weekend ever. i hope you did too 🙂

spring cleaning..

so i’ve come to this new obsession of cleaning my room. i want to redo it entirely. i almost cried when my parents told me that i would have to move out of my room in a little more than a year when i go to college. and my little sister came in late at night. gave me a hug. and told me that i could keep my room. it’s weird how i can become so empassioned about my room. it’s like my home. well, it is my home.

but i started a new trend around the house. and everyone’s cleaning their room now. and my sister stole all my clothes that i got rid of. and my mom was super excited. haha.

mi familia…

mtv’s i want a famous face

makes me sick.

how superficial this world has become. how fake. how far we go to achieve something. or just how rediculous the whole thing is.

people no longer are happy with themselves. and the media promotes that. makes money off of this self-image discontent. and goes on to encourage more people to become unhappy with how they look.

and this isn’t just a little change that they go through to look like their favorite celebrity. this is plastic surgery. a whole lot of it. no, not cutting your hair to look like them. dressing like them. or anything simple and quick like that. but instead. cutting your face. sucking your fat. and more.

ew. i’m disgusted by what low self-esteem people have these days. or how obsessive the world has become. there has to be SOMETHING wrong with all of this.

ugh.

RAVE// morning swim practice was delicious.

RANT// ah… i’m wasting time!