went home

despite efforts to make today a good day. it sucked. maybe it can even be labeled as the worst day ever. so, at 11:45 am, i just gave up all together and went home “sick.” i thought about putting “having a terrible day” as my reason for going home on the sign-in sheet at the nurses office. instead i lied and said i was sick.

i wish i could tell the whole story here. i wish i could explain to you why i spent lunch crying. or why i’m crying right now. but mostly i wish i could explain this terrible day. but i can’t. it’s too complicated.

this morning can all be summed up in one simple word. frustration.

i want to go back and start over. rewind.

i need a hug.

i need to talk to someone.

but i’m going to break down crying again.

when have i ever cried this much?

i think i’m just going to go to bed. sleep. or something. just.. unwind. forget all this ever happened.

RAVE// thanks charles, zelle, and barb for listening. for putting up with me in such a frustrated, pessimistic state today. aw. i love you guys 🙂

RANT// kadjfjasdfldsajdsa i hate you.