i got an A in calc!

i can’t believe it. i spent all weekend convincing myself that a B was okay. and when i finally reached acceptance, i get back my math final. i couldn’t even look at it. it was pathetic, but when i finally calculated out my grade at home, my calculator returned at 89.7%. i can’t believe this. finally! i’m SO HAPPY! lol. i’m a nerd…

new beginings

it’s amazing. this school year, for the first time ever, i’ve actually tried in school. for the first time, i actually studied for finals. and for the first time i actually really, really wanted to do good. it’s a weird feeling when you actually care, and even tho it makes you work harder, it brings you down a lot when you don’t do well and look back at how much you tried. sometimes it’s better just to pretend you never cared i guess. but this time i really do. and i can’t deny it.

despite everything i loved about 1st semester, i’m really glad that 2nd semster finally arrived. i feel refreshed. today i received a whole new schedule because of 6th period swim, and it felt like the first day of school again. 🙂 i love my classes so much more even tho i still have all the same teachers. isn’t it weird how the people in the class can change how you feel about the class even tho you’re still learning the exact same thing?

i don’t know. i’m just feeling very relieved right now. all the stress of EVERYTHING is finally off my shoulders. who knows, maybe for once i can finally sleep again. that’d be nice. 🙂 i know the stress will eventually come back, but i’ll have swim this time around. and all those endorphins to keep me happy. 😛

RAVE// i have this sudden obsession with third eye blind. aren’t they awesome?

RANT// zero period begins again tomorrow.