my brain won’t shut up

with all the lack of sleep i get during the week days, you would think that falling asleep the second i get the chance to wouldn’t be a problem. but i think that there’s been too much on my mind lately. so much, in fact, that my brain won’t turn off automatically anymore. i don’t even remember how to fall asleep reguarly anymore. every night i count flying cows, pretend to sleep, or toss around aimlessly.

seriously. yesterday night i laid in bed for two hours trying to figure out how to get myself to fall asleep. i tried to just close my eyes and wait, but when it gets to the point of waiting two hours. you know that SOMETHING has to be wrong. this whole week i’ve been almost asleep when i suddenly realize that i’ve forgotten something and i’ll get up and put it next to my backpack or write it down. sometimes it’s important stuff, like bringing my psych book to school, but most of the time it is stoopid stuff like remembering a good song from the previews of a movie or replaying in my head something that happened that day.

it’s like i’ve suddenly become an insomniac. my brain won’t shut off, and things just keep racing through it. i need to do SOMETHING about this.

i need sleep. and my brain won’t shut up.

RAVE// disneyland was a nice break from all this hectic studying. canoeing was the BEST! 🙂

RANT// i want my parka!