today was a scare.

i got an e-mail from erin yesterday, and it said that we had to pass our music off (play our field show music memorized) for mr. nelson, our band director. first let’s get the facts down. 1.) i seriously fear mr. nelson. i don’t really know why. but i guess it’s just i really want him to respect me, and i’m scared to make a wrong move. 2.) i don’t have the music perfectly memorized to the point where i can stand in front of anyone and play it. i blank when i get nervous. and plus. i had a busy weekend with pep band on friday and then morP on saturday, leaving me very little time to practice. 3.) i’m section leader. i shouldn’t not have my music memorized perfectly. somehow i feel like i’m not setting a good example for my section.. like i’ve failed them or something. : anyway. so i freak out when i get the e-mail, but realize i have barely any time to practice because of the immense amount of homework that’s piled up on my desk, so i pray… that this is all just a rumor. since i’ve never even heard of this nelson passing off business anyway. so i’m calm, but really stressed out all morning, until break when erich tells me that it’s all for real. and that scott had talked to nelson about it this morning. i was like. holy crap. and stopped dead in my tracks. cause all that could go through my mind was.. i’m screwed. so i went through all the rest of the school day.. crying inside, stressing out, having mini break downs and what not.. until the bell rang at 2:45 pm to let us out of school. then i flipped out. and whipped out my flute and started memorizing like crazy. fortunatly, i know a ton more than i think i do. i stress too much serious. cause nelson didn’t end up testing us at all. i don’t know if nelson just told us that he was going to test us to scare the shit out of us. or what. but i’m relieved.

so after the flute sectional after school, i went to swim practice for the first time in a week. swimming is such a stress reliever. i was swimming crazy fast, and i didn’t even realize it until when i got home and i was super sore. xP but yeah. today.. was stressful. ::sigh:: the life of a high school teenager.

RAVE// swim yay!

RANT// nelson, gr..